Chapter 12

(Andy’s POV)
“Erica Marie Gonzalez, you are the most amazing person I have ever met. You complete me. I love you. I love you.” My heart was pounding in my head. I really hoped Erica couldn’t hear how nervous I was saying that to her. Finally, she pushed me away from her.
“You love me?” She said with a hint of disgust in her voice.
“More than anything in the world baby, don’t you feel the same way?” I tried to reason with her. I stared deep into her eyes and tried to read what she was thinking but all I could see were walls that weren’t there before.
“Uh…”
“Uh…. What?” I asked defensively. I know she loves me. I saw it in her eyes when I stormed into the house earlier tonight.
“I just.. I just.. can’t love you right now.” Erica stood up and ran into the bathroom. Whenever I went and tried to reason with her or talk with her she would ignore me. After about an hour, I decided to leave. I called Alex right away.
“Dude, There you are. We were worried about you after you stormed away from our meeting earlier today with Ned. He seems like a really great guy and has a lot…”
“I DON’T WANT TO HEAR ABOUT EFFING NED” I screamed at Alex.
“Woah. Damn, if you’re going to be like this I don’t even want to talk to you. So spit out what you have to say and then I’m going.”
“I called because something happened between Erica and me. I finally told her I loved her.”
“That’s great. She’s a really great girl, we all love her a lot.”
“Yeah, she couldn’t say it back. As I said it she ran into the bathroom and away from me. I have no idea what to do. I want her to be in my life and she has never shut down on me like that. I am so confused right now. Do I go back and wait for her or do I give her space?”
“Wow. Uhm. I am really sorry to hear that, but I don’t know. You know her better than any of us. Would you normally give her space or would you try and get her to talk to you? From what I’ve seen of Erica, you need to give her space and she’ll come around eventually.”
“I hope you’re right man. I just don’t want to lose her. I really do love her more than anything”
“I know you do. I know. Just be careful around her. Give her space. She’ll come around to you.”
After hanging up with Alex, I felt a little bit better about the whole Erica situation. I know she loves me but I don’t want to pressure her to say something when she isn’t ready. I head to the subway to get home and as I’m walking to the house I see her again. Jessica.
“What are you doing here? You moved out. We had determined it wasn’t mine right? Why are you here again?” I was irritated. I had a bad day with Erica and I didn’t really want to see the girl who almost broke us up right now.
“Well, we had never actually determined it and that’s what I came to talk to you about.”
“What do you mean?” A knot formed in my stomach. I kept on reassuring myself that I was not the father.
“Well, remember when I got the swab of stuff from your mouth and I had said I had gotten a paternity test. Well I never actually got the results until a few days ago.”
“And…”
“And you are the father.”
(Erica POV)
I heard Andy shut the door from the front of the house. Tears still running down my face, I slowly pick myself back up and head out into the room. Memories of what had happened flood back into my mind. I was just trying to calm Andrew down from the whole Ned fiasco and kissed him. One little kiss led to deeper kissing, deeper kissing led us going upstairs, and going upstairs led to Andrew saying I love you. Why didn’t I say it back? I really have no idea. I just can’t say it to him. After seeing what happened to my mom and then to me I just cannot deal with being in love with someone. I do care for Andrew more than anything but there are things he still doesn’t know about me. Things I know he’s going to find out soon but I just can’t tell him. Instead, I decide to call the one person who does need to know.
“Hello?” The person answered, the obviously don’t recognize the number anymore.
“Hey Ned, It’s Erica.”
“Oh, Hey! How are you? I’ve wanted to talk to you. I’m a manager for a band named Honor Society now and they’re awesome. I’m living my dream. I cannot believe…”
“Yeah I know,” I felt bad for cutting him off but I really didn’t want to be on the phone with him for longer than I needed to be. “My boyfriend is the bassist.”
“Andrew? That explains a lot.” He said that with a tinge of hate in his voice. I think he was jealous.
“Yeah. Well I’m actually calling for one reason and one reason only. Remember that one night?”
“Remember? It was an amazing night! Wasn’t it the same for you?”
“Oh yeah, being taken advantage of is amazing. Yeah. Fuck no.”
“What?.”
“I told you to stop but you continued to push yourself on me. You took advantage of me. It’s not fun. And anyways, from that, I’m now pregnant.”